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Said It and Meant It

In my old journals are letters; one received from Mom in 1998. In one she wrote “We meant what that card says” and I wondered what that was.

To get through the years of journals (I’ve come from 1975 to 1998 since beginning this time-consuming endeavour), I’m daily reading the entry from one date only, each day. Otherwise it doesn’t happen. It’s like housecleaning: if I start even one small task, I’m likely to keep on going and because I don’t want to do that, I don’t start. But if I tell myself I’m only going to read (or do) the one and won’t be committed to any more, I’m more likely to do my own bidding (i.e. the routines/habits that I know are best for me). It’s the same with yoga (just the sun salutation, that’s all I have to do right now!) and the walks (just to the end of the driveway, that’s all I have to do right now!). I make these promises in order to motivate myself and they work, though once I’m in the doing, continuing is more appealing than quitting. Which is a good thing usually.

Feb. 03, 1998: Received birthday card from Mom and Dad. It says “You have always been a good daughter to us, and your love and friendship are a comfort to us.” (Paraphrased)
The sentiment is part of a store-bought card but still I got teary, which surprised me. Guess I’d like to hear them say that.

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Liz and Kathy

Me and Liz, my first friend and roommate in the girls’ dorm in Regina in Grade 10, Sept. 1975. You can almost see can’t you — look at that face — what a willful, arrogant daughter I must’ve been. Liz is wearing the fuzzy jacket she wore on the day we met, and we are at Aunt Jean’s in Saskatoon. How did we get there? Why? If only I still had the old journal — HA!

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3 thoughts on “Said It and Meant It

  1. You do look like a little hellion in that old photo. :D That’s good advice for motivation – just do this one thing. I often tell myself something similar when meditating (when I feel overwhelmed with things to do) – just five minutes. But I’ve never thought about doing it with other tasks, so thanks for that idea!

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